Sunday, September 20, 2009

It's not a mistake.

This week I had to make a difficult decision. And it's not like this has been the first time I've ever had to make a tough decision. But this is the first time that the first thing I thought to do was pray. I was so relieved at the easy fix that I honestly laughed. So I prayed. AND THEN A BOLT OF LIGHTNING STRUCK ME IN THE FOREHEAD AND I KNEW WHAT TO DO!!! False. I sat there, and nothing happened. But I found myself thinking a lot about one of the options, and then I thought of something I could do, and I did it. When I thought about it, I realized that could be the answer to my prayer, but I decided it wasn't because it had been my normal thought process, and I hadn't really felt something out of the norm. So I was kind of disappointed that I hadn't been answered and I had a few doubts about my ability to hear, or God's wanting to answer. So I went to bed, and just decided to kind of forget about it, and just sort of say that what I had done was an answer, even though I didn't really believe it was. Then today in church, a woman got on the stand and decided to talk about prayer. And she said "I felt impressed that I needed to say this, but not everyone gets answers in the same way.." and then proceeded to list of ways we can be influenced by the Spirit in answers to prayers, and I just sort of stared at her in shock. The whole "impressed to say this" is almost a cliche in church talks, and I never thought much about it. But this was fantastic, and extraordinarily accurate. Usually at times like these, I would burst into tears at this magnificent revelation, and feel dumb for doubting anything. But today, I got a content little smile, and I just felt happy. I sat back in my seat, and almost felt like God was chuckling at me, which I have no doubt he was. Who would have thought even Heavenly Father likes to say "I told you so?"

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